Simple Depression???

Such overwhelming joy casts me into pure depression when it crosses my mind;
bitter indulgence lies beneath my sweat-soaked surface,
and there is nothing that can control the things that are to be spoken;
wails within dig deeper, leaving behind scars of broken communication;
rid me of this deviled instinct and clear before me the path of peace the mind
so that I may dwell in the smile of life.

(Originally written July 4, 1984 – and dedicated to all who are hurting.)