For the past several weeks, I have been under
an overwhelming amount of stress. Most of this was work-related: working long
hours with short deadlines. Throw in several church-related activities and
tasks on top of that, and I was running on non-stop overdrive.
In
the midst of all of this, we had a family emergency at the hospital. Upon
driving to the hospital one day, I noticed that I was having difficulty
breathing and felt some odd pains in my chest that I had never felt before. I
thought that I was having a heart attack. I immediately broke into prayer
asking God to help calm me down. At that very moment, a song came on the radio
– and I heard these lyrics:
Every anxious thought that steals my breath,
It’s a heavy weight upon my chest.
As I lie awake and wonder what the future will hold,
Help me to remember that You’re in control.
You’re my courage when I worry in the dead of night.
You’re my strength ’cause I’m not strong enough to win this fight.
You are greater than the battle raging in my mind;
I will trust You, Lord, I will fear no more.
As
soon as these words touched my ears, I felt the power of God within me and I
began to realize that I could not handle all of this weight on my own. I suddenly
felt a calmness come over me and began to breathe normal again.
In
our first reading, Queen Esther, filled with anguish, breaks into prayer and
realizes that there is no one else who can provide her with the help she needs
other than her Lord and Savior.
Every
now and then, you and I need a little reminder that we need to turn to God for
help. We cannot handle our stress alone but need to rely on the one who can help
us carry our load.
During
this Lenten season, let us get into the habit of turning to our Father in
prayer. For everyone who asks, receives; and the one who seeks, finds; and to
the one who knocks, the door will be opened.
Lord, turn our mourning into gladness and our
sorrows into wholeness. Praise be to God, now and forever. Amen.